Yoga and meditation saved my life or at least my mind. I have been driven, busy, involved with the community, my work, my family, and super self-sufficient for most of my life. When over the course of one year I was laid off from my job and I was diagnosed with cervical cancer, I went from being incredibly busy and self-sufficient to incredibly vulnerable. I was fortunate enough to have the support of an amazing group of family and friends but through it alI I was afraid that I would never feel like myself again and even more afraid that I didn’t even know who that was anymore.
On top of whatever we as humans are going through, we put an added layer of pressure on ourselves that we have to “be strong” and that being strong means being tough, or that we don’t want to lean too heavily on our relationships, or that we have to be “just so.” We don’t want to disappoint people, we don’t want to disappoint ourselves. Coming to grips with the idea that our bodies can’t do what we want them to carries stress and pressure that can make us feel incredibly vulnerable, anxious, and frustrated. We wake up one day and don’t recognize our lives. We wonder how we as human beings change our perceptions in order to handle all of the psychological complications and nuances of life and now illness. And on top of all of that, it is hard trust that your body can be strong for you again.
For me, yoga, meditation, and other integrated techniques have helped me connect my mind, body, and heart, to get out of my own head and my own way, and to see that I am able to shape my perceptions and in turn, my experiences, and the way I handle stressful situations.
I have come a long way toward letting go of “shoulds,” judgement, self-doubt, and fear, and I have learned to trust my body again, to trust in its ability to heal and be strong. These techniques have helped me to develop compassion for myself and a knowledge that has helped me to stop judging myself so harshly and to stop succumbing to the pressures we feel as partners, parents, employees, and humans. And now that I have discovered what an empowering and amazing gift this is, I want to share it with you.
I see my life as a ever-evolving journey, a series of experiences that have shaped who I am and have led me to this point. Understanding that my journey is not everyone’s and that the same things may not work for everyone in the same way, I work in partnership with people, creating individualized strategies to help them get back to achieving whatever their definition of health, success, and wellness is.